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Friday, July 12 @ 11:40 PM
3rd Ramdhan 1434H. Alhamdulillah.
Most of my friends told me that he also have the same feeling towards me. Its hard for me to accept it because uhmm well, he got plenty of fans
[ppl who have a crush on him] which is 100x better than me.
If possible, I want to accept that fact. But the reality, is there any evidence to prove it?
Some said that, certain people have different way to express his love. I dont know what kind of way he shown me. I didnt see anything. As I know, he treated me nicely as a friend. At my thought actually. He treated every person, the same way he treated me.
I dont want to lose fate on him. I do love him. I do want to tell him that I love him.
But,
Its not the right time for him to know. I dont want to ruin our friendship. I dont want myself to have a self-depress on something like this. We still in an immature zone.
Or, the ugliest fact,
he have a crush on someone, which is way better than me. Ouch.
Some also told me, "if you dont show him what you feel, how he gonna know the truth? Show it, who knows he have a crush on you too?" I'm toooooooo scare to show it & i dont know why.
if you really
loved me,
you'd make
the effort,
not me